30 days of Truth: Day 5

Something you hope to do in your life:

I had a million goals as a child. I wanted to learn every hobby out there... nearly... I wanted to write a complete dictionary that included every word that existed... I wanted to have it all perfect and do it all the right way... and never have debt except for a house... I wanted to know how to fix everything so i'd never have to pay anyone to fix it...

Then i started learning how to do some of those... and i learned i have no patience for sewing or car repair. I learned that i'm scared for high-risk hobbies such as skiing, nor do i wish to try to afford it.

As i grew older, i had goals like, go to college, get a degree, marry a wonderful guy, and have kids. Having kids is the only thing i haven't done yet, as far as those 4 go.

And i can't say i 'hope' to have kids, because i'm totally planning on it... in the next couple years-ish. But my goals at this point aren't the kind of "Wow", that everybody admires... like becoming a helicopter pilot (which i still think sounds fun...); they're more like...

1. preparing for the commitment of raising children

2. learning to be a good wife

3. learning the give and take of favors within a family

4. learning when, where, and how to set boundaries

5. coming to an understanding of past events

6. figuring out what hobbies are still worth pursuing

7. learning how to budget so i can pay off debt and save

It's a busy lot to learn, but not an easily measurable one... however, i can tell when i've made some progress... most of the time. However, sometimes it's my husband that points it out.

30 Days of Truth: Day 4

Something you have to forgive someone for:

Ah ha! So the story must come out now from Day 3 post...

I must forgive my father for...

...this is where i wrote down 5 points i need to forgive him for... but unfortunately, i couldn't bring myself to post them. He's not a bad guy... it just wasn't his strengths. Some of them... he just didn't know how to be that person.

30 days of Truth: Day 3

Something you have to forgive yourself for:

Throwing away my brothers toys when we were young children. I thought they were butt ugly. Like a neon yellow motorcycle.

Or cheating them out of their favorite toys - Like cleaning Ben's room for him and then demanding payment - of his favorite hot wheel car - a purple vw bug.

I've been trying to make up for it - i bought Ben another one to replace it... unfortunately not the very same one, as that one is lost in a parental storage unit... that story is for some other day of truth...

30 Days of Truth:Day 2

Something I love about myself:

I love that I still like to play like a little kid. I like swinging on the swings, I like playing with the kid's meal toys, and I love spontaneously having fun with whatever I run across.

Like the other day, I bought a kid's meal at Carl's Jr - the chicken strips (which tasted much better than the Western Bacon Cheeseburger) and got a Megamind toy that i practically jumped up and down when i found, and nearly fought out of my 17 year old brother-in-law's hands. It was intense.

Tears, Blood, and Sorrow

I have this friend... and she has a lot of personal issues. I've been 'best friends' with her for about 4 years... but she has this nasty habit of regularly accusing her friends that they're trying to get rid of her as a friend. I always try to reassure her, but this month, I've been getting a little sick of this game. And a little sick of her asking me to save her from her mistakes. And a little sick that she thinks she's a reliable friend, but in reality, hasn't slowed down to be a friend to me in the last year and a half.

On top of that, she lives 3 years in the past, and expects me to still act somewhat single and unmarried, as well as expect that from my husband - because she knew him when he was single. And expects all of us former roommates to be the same people we were 3 years ago. Which is getting a little ridiculous.

Is it so wrong to dump her?

30 Days of Truth: Day 1

"30 days of truth" http://hope.gr/30-days-of-truth/

So I stumbled across this the other day... kind of liked the idea... except some of it's pretty private... so i think answering some of them honestly could lead to some hurt feelings and unnecessary drama. . . but i think it would be fun for me to answer at least some of them. PS. I make no promises to answer them in order.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

I don't really like the idea of hating something about myself. I don't have anything that I feel like i hate 24/7 and any given time... however, being a little scatterbrained doesn't serve me very well. However, it does make my high-strung husband laugh on a regular basis.

Secondly, my vocabulary could use some work. I have a habit of pronouncing things as they're spelled, rather than how they're said. Examples: "Herb" instead of "erb" and "equivocation" like "e-quiv-voc-ation"... i'm still not sure how that's suppose to sound. secondly, i mean, thirdly, when i can't think of a word, i'm fairly liberal on my substitutes. I used the word 'door' instead of 'driveway' or 'the entrance to a apt complex.' This type of thing tends to leave many people confused...

And lastly, I could use some more confidence.

That's about it. Nothing i hate about myself... just stuff that could definitely use some work.

Taxes & Obama: I'm really upset

So, i just got this email that listed many of the things that will be in affect by January 1, 2011 or shortly there after... and a lot of it looks legitimate... And AWFUL.

It basically says that Obama will tax the crap out of everybody and give them very little credit for anything. I assume that's because he's just given us all these *bonus* stimuluses that put the country in greater debt. Funny thing is, there's a lot of people and businesses who got shafted in these stimuluses.

A small example from my life, is their appliances stimulus. Bring in your old appliance, and get a new one, on Obama's bill. Merchants jacked up their prices because there was a sudden high demand. Consequently, upon getting married, my husband and I were having trouble affording our FIRST appliance. Suck. It's frustrating all these people getting their NEW car and NEW appliance and NEW TV adapter, when we couldn't get an ORIGINAL. Secondly, if we're in so much debt, where's the justification in getting NEW stuff? "Stimulus" he says. Has the president ever had a home economics class? There's a term called TNSTAAFL. That means, There's No Such Thing As A Free Lunch; or in other words, Obama spends it for us citizens - like it's a free gift to us all... but he ain't paying for it. We are... plus interest.

That's going to make it ridiculously hard for anyone to save for retirement... or anything for that matter. We're all going to spend our lives paying interest on National Debt.

It's the Health insurance that makes me the most angry. Who gave him the right to tell me what i need to buy? If I'm tight on money, i'd pick food over health insurance any day.